Dear April,

you cannot come soon enough. i am looking forward to your presence with great anticipation. more anticipation than i'd like to admit. i pray that you come with a diploma (which means, i cannot fail my classes. i must endure. i must not give up). please help me to not give up. 


i'm overwhelmed with work and school. (same old story as the next person, i know i know.) but i know when you arrive, the end will be in sight. it will be the end of not seeing my husband  until 10:30 at night and not preparing descent meals for too many days on end and feeling as though my house is on the verge of disaster because it receives so little of my attention.


thankfully, this week, i was able to be reminded how good life is. you know, by those simple things you notice when life starts piling up. those things you have to notice so you don't go insane. 


just some of those things were: 
             my husband dancing in the garage for me when i came home. it changed my tear filled face to a smiling, laughing one. 
             watching a husband and wife flirt adorably at the gym. it made me look forward to my 50's with daron. after a life i imagine being full of joys and challenges, still flirting. still making each other laugh.
            writing love notes to my lover while in class. (this doesn't contribute to my fear of not getting the best of grades...do you think?)
             having the pleasure to spend time with my beautiful, gorgeous mother-in-law. ohh, please come back soon!
           reading letters from my far away friends in italy and france.
           the 15 minute phone calls i get with  my mom and sisters during any chance i get
           and, an always favorite, date night with hubby to none other than the G spoon. 


the other night i was driving to dinner with my sister-in-law kirstin and her husband to a family dinner. she mentioned how, when you finally come to greet us, we will officially be graduates. done with our undergrad forever. she asked me what is planned after that. what comes next? and it made me realize that i have absolutely no idea. babies? maybe. traveling to europe? oh i can only hope. i blame THIS blog for making europe on the mind. going to grad school soon? a possibility. not going to grad school? also a possibility.


i don't know what is coming after. i am having a fun time thinking about it though. but my dear april, you must come soon so i can enjoy the unknown adventures of our future....please!
sincerely,


your biggest fan. the young fam.