FULL TERM (!!!!!)

is this day really here!? am i really full term!? guys, this is nuts! 

at 37 weeks, the waddle is in full force. i tell daron i feel like a "rocking ship." my legs feel like they are not attached to my body and i look semi-crippled by nightfall (thanks to the whole my legs do not feel attached to my body thing). hunger strikes have hit. i can't make it through the night without food. last night, daron had the pleasure of "sleeping" next to me while i ate yogurt and almonds in bed. the night before it was an orange with bread. the night before that it was peanut butter toast. he also has the pleasure of hearing me get up 5 times a night to pee and trip over the shopping bag at the foot of our bed that i keep forgetting to move ;) yeah, he's a lucky guy...

every where i go, i get sympathy from strangers. i wish i could say i make pregnancy look good and effortless and oh, so appealing but that is not the case. 

it's funny though because at 34 weeks this little girl dropped over night. i stepped out of bed one morning and could feel that she was much lower (and it was a lot because even daron noticed!) ever since, the nausea and a few other very unfortunate symptoms disappeared. poof. gone! it's been heavenly. (okay, that's an exaggeration). but really, i'm good at this uncomfortable, crippled thing. i can do this. this feels so doable to me compared to the whole i want to throw up all day feeling, etc... now i look awful but feel so much better. so when i'm at trader joes, and it's clear from people's comments that they are in pain from just watching me walk... i feel dumb saying, "i actually feel amazing!"

it's ironic to me that i have impatiently waited for the end of this pregnancy to be here for months and now, i'm more than okay if she takes her sweet time. heaven knows, i need it. 

her room is a disaster 
i haven't packed the hospital bag 
washed the car seat 
bought an outfit for her to come home in 
kicked carter out of the crib (i'm so dreading that one)  
bought her bedding, 
along with the other 1,583 things on my to do list. 

i need two weeks, baby girl. two weeks! 
then, it's time for you to come, okay?